I think I fell asleep at the computer about a week ago. And somehow posted... something odd. I'm sorry for anyone I may have startled! I suppose I was just really tired that day. I'm sort of wondering how my face was able to press that many keys and then click on the submit button all while I was asleep. That sort of thing doesn't usually happen to people, does it?

Jumping to another topic, graduation... Graduation was a while ago, actually. There was a lot of people there, beautiful speeches were made, and I can't help but think of what I'm leaving behind. My last year was really something. A lot of things happened, there was good mixed in with the bad, but I think I've grown during those periods

I think, Seigaku's tennis team especially grew. We've had a lot of members join this year, and we're the closest to winning the Nationals than we were years ago. We have an amazing team and incredible members. Sometimes it feels like we could take on pro tennis players one on one. Isn't that strange?

I'll miss being around the lowerclassmen, and I know I'll miss seeing Momo and Kaidou around (I'll miss seeing them bicker too, though I don't really like admitting it) and of course, Echizen, our star regular. I'll miss being able to lead a team with Tezuka towards a goal like the Nationals. But I suppose it's ok, we'll see each other again in a few years time. And then we'll be together again. (Well, unless one of us decides to move or go to another school, I guess.)


(I feel that we were really like a family for the last three years.

I remember when I first spotted Tezuka in the tennis club, we were so small then, and how I was angry at him for not fighting back - but then I knew that I wouldn't have done anything to stop it either. And I remember trying to talk to him, and how reserved he seemed to be, but he was the only one I really knew at the tennis club then, so we somehow became friends. We used to go to each other's houses and we had these plans that... that seem to be taking fruit this year. It's like a dream come true. Is that sappy of me to say?

I never imagined that I would love another sport as much as I love bowling, but it seems I do. I was never really that great at tennis either; Tezuka was the one who helped train me, and that's how I was able to become a regular in the first place, those few years ago.

And then I met Eiji, and well, he was a stubborn one. Always full of energy and trying to make me laugh and relax... And then I wondered if we could be doubles partners. We really screwed up the first few times. The mistakes we made... Tezuka would hit me if I ever told him. But it was worth it, because look at where we are now.

But. Where are we now? I don't... think we ever planned on love. Never planned on falling in love, never planned to hurt each other. But at least we seem to be on good terms again.

When I talked to Tezuka and Eiji, it was.. awkward. Awkward, and then I guess we remembered. You know, all those times we had in the past. And then it was ok. They said it was ok, I think it's ok. We're going to be ok. It was just a bit of a phase we were caught up in. Now we're gonna try to start anew.

It's a bit like the old times, when we were carefree and innocent, except there's this shadow now. Though I don't want more. Not now. It would be too soon. What we have now, I'm happy with it. Extremely. I wouldn't give our friendship up for the world.

I remember the first time I met Inui and Taka-san too. Taka-san was really nice, he was a bit like me when he started coming to play tennis. Unless, of course, you give him a racquet. He's really strong, a powerful player, and I'll miss seeing him at the tennis practices in the future. I wish him the best of luck with his restaurant though! I bet when we're all adults, we'll come back to Seigaku one day, and we'll see Taka-san open up his restaurant and he'll still have the best sushi that we've ever eaten - maybe he'll even have a chain of restaurants. But that's just wishful thinking.

Inui scared me a little when I met him. I think it had something to do with his height, he was always the tallest. And I can't say his juices didn't scare me either. (There was a time when they used to be sweet, you know? Then all those healthy vegetables got dumped into it... Which is good, I guess. But taste shouldn't be overlooked... Then again, we did just use them for punishments. I think Inui preferred it that way.) Maybe one day Inui will start up a juice product or something. I wonder if anything geninuely likes his juice? Besides Fuji?

Fuji was the last one to join us in our third year circle. The boy who always smiled and almost suffered the same fate as Tezuka did. There are a lot of things that I don't understand about him, and yet a lot that I can grasp at least a little bit. He was very hard to read, ridiciously smart, always cheerful, and just that much more mischievious. Obviously he and Eiji became best friends right away.

I wonder if we'll be treated the way we were back in first year when we go to high school? I hope not. But at least we're ready this time.

... Though, I'm not sure if I still want to play tennis anymore. If I still have time. I'd like to continue.)


A lot of the team was composed of third years; I wonder what will happen to the team next year?


(When Momo and Kaidou showed up to Seigaku a year later, they were already fighting! Not much has changed, has it? But I think, despite all that, they really are good friends underneath. Maybe they'll play doubles together next year? I think it would be an interesting combination, and they played really well in the Rikkai Dai matches together. Maybe I'll tell Tezuka and he can tell them. Though they're also really strong singles players on their own. Momo's really strong and can hold his own on the court really well. Kaidou can too, and it's great that they're able to also play doubles when the time calls for it. I think they'll do a fine job of leading Seigaku next year.

Echizen, of course, will be a brilliant player. Especially in the singles department (it's pretty weak in the doubles department, not that that's a bad thing). He came to Japan as someone no one had heard about, but he rose so far so fast. I wonder if Tezuka will make him captain? I suppose I should talk to him about that sometime soon before the Nationals are done and over with, and we'll have to start our new lives in high school.)


It makes me a bit sad, thinking back, but I suppose the thought of looking forward always helped people. Though more than the future, I should focus on the now. The Nationals is coming up in a few days (!!). I really hope Seigaku will win!


(I phoned Tezuka recently, but he wasn't at home - he was probably out practicing as always. I left him a message that told him to meet me at Seigaku's courts whenever he was free. I'm going to give up the captaincy and let him take it back.)


I got a job again, helping out at the hospital at Seigaku University with my uncle. I just started it a little while ago. I figured I needed to find a way to earn money for myself, and saving up for university early never hurt anyone. I do a lot of odd and end jobs; taking things to this floor or this room for people, talking to some of the patients, teaching some of the elderly how to use the computer (though I'm not that great at it myself, but I know the basic works), and sometimes helping out at the gift shop. It's a nice, easy job, usually. So far nothing hectic has happened while I've worked there.

Yesterday, the high school that I'm going to phoned me and I had to sort out a misunderstanding about my future school schedule. I wonder how school'll change from what it is now? But it's still Seigaku, so I wonder if there'll be any changes at all.

Rereading this post, it is entirely too long, but I guess that's what happens when you don't post for a while, huh? I guess I'll stop it here then, I don't have much else to say.

I'm going to go try and convince Tezuka to go outside with me to a public place (he said something about shopping to me). Hopefully to some place that isn't a sports store. Wish me luck!